what do you do when you love someone so much, but you cant be with them?
i have spent so much of my time loving someone who at this point i cant have and it breaks me apart piece by piece.
all i wish for is to be able to seem him, so he can see how nuts he has made me in the last 5 years.
boyfriends i have had and lost because i end up comparing them all to him and wishing they were him. i would do anything to be with him.
he is the only person i know that knows all my secrets, has put up with me when i got angry.
i used to be such an angry person, wanting to hurt anyone just so they knew how i felt but this guy snapped me out of that.
it is amazing how much you could love a person. but its strange that you can hate the fact you love someone so much because you cant show them how much you care about them, how crazy they drive you, how your gut aches when you think about them, how your heart breaks when they say goodbye then as soon as they say goodbye you wonder how long til you speak to them again, how if you only had one wish in the entire world it wouldnt be for money or fame but just to be given the chance to show them and tell them how you feel.
