tag:hollyangel.blog.co.uk,2009-11-11:/MokoFeed2009-11-11T04:44:54+01:00tag:hollyangel.blog.co.uk,2009-03-28:/2009/03/28/the-trouble-is-5847884/hollyangel2009-03-28T14:22:47+01:002009-03-28T14:35:48+01:00 <p>fighting with my own demons has never been something i have done very well and i have never won a round! but i did for a little while learn to ignore them but now i think this is where my problems really began....</p> <p>i again battled to get my weight down and i managed to get to 7 and a half stone but as i began to ignore the voices telling me to lose more weight, my weight crept up and there i was a ten stone....... i thought i was over the idea that i needed to be skinny and i thought i had actually won this time.......</p> <p>but now i repulse myself and cannot stand to see what i look like.... so here i am hearing the voices telling me to lose weight and for once i am not even going to try and fight with them for now i think they are right..... people say i was to skinny before, but they say that now and never said it then so i cant believe that to be true......</p> <p>so....</p> <p>i have lost 6 pounds in 5 days<br> i am determind to get my weight down to 7 and a half stone<br> i have voices urging me to lose more<br> i make myself sick now without even needing to us my fingures, i can just force it all back out.......</p> <p>and the trouble is.......</p> <p>i feel comfortable and in control and for once actually understand myself and feel like myself...... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://hollyangel.blog.co.uk/2009/03/28/the-trouble-is-5847884/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:hollyangel.blog.co.uk,2007-11-11:/2007/11/11/chances_are~3281640/hollyangel2007-11-11T21:28:25+01:002007-11-11T21:28:25+01:00 <p>chances are i'll never get a moment<br>like this again<br>so heres everything i ever wanted<br>to tell you<br>no one has ever gotten me <br>like you<br>i've never found anyone who makes me laugh<br>like you<br>you're the one person i can honestly see<br>myself being happy with</p> <p>the definition of love to me is you </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://hollyangel.blog.co.uk/2007/11/11/chances_are~3281640/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:hollyangel.blog.co.uk,2007-11-11:/2007/11/11/i_am_in_love~3281589/hollyangel2007-11-11T21:18:10+01:002007-11-11T21:18:10+01:00 <p>what do you do when you love someone so much, but you cant be with them?</p> <p>i have spent so much of my time loving someone who at this point i cant have and it breaks me apart piece by piece.<br>all i wish for is to be able to seem him, so he can see how nuts he has made me in the last 5 years.</p> <p>boyfriends i have had and lost because i end up comparing them all to him and wishing they were him. i would do anything to be with him.</p> <p>he is the only person i know that knows all my secrets, has put up with me when i got angry.<br>i used to be such an angry person, wanting to hurt anyone just so they knew how i felt but this guy snapped me out of that.</p> <p>it is amazing how much you could love a person. but its strange that you can hate the fact you love someone so much because you cant show them how much you care about them, how crazy they drive you, how your gut aches when you think about them, how your heart breaks when they say goodbye then as soon as they say goodbye you wonder how long til you speak to them again, how if you only had one wish in the entire world it wouldnt be for money or fame but just to be given the chance to show them and tell them how you feel. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://hollyangel.blog.co.uk/2007/11/11/i_am_in_love~3281589/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>